Current iTunes: The Spill Canvas - Black Dresses

I'm still alive I promise. I'm dealing with raging emotions sprouting from discontent and anxious thoughts of future opportunities. It's time to pick apart old pictures, stop overanalyizing words and time to add happiness to my life for the first time in what seems like a lifetime. It's time to stop hailing the heart-breaker, and time to begin moving on to something new that I haven't experienced before. No more Army Greens, no more combat boots, long nights (other then self-inflicted ones), no more grenades, assholes without the opportunity to object to their unneccesry madness.

I have myself and intentions to look forward to. It's time to rekindle some long lost friends, spend time with my family, meet some new friends, maybe do my homework =P .

My heart goes out to Dave and his family, who've grown to become my family over the years. You know we'll always be there for you, I love you, we all love you. It broke my heart to hear of your loss, and I'll probably never be able to make up missing the service, but I promise you won't ever forget how much I care.

Try to have a good Sunday.

Dear alcohol,

First & foremost, let me tell you that I'm a huge fan of yours. As my
friend, you always seem to be there when needed. The perfect post-work
cocktail, a beer at the game, and you're even around in the holidays,
hidden inside chocolates as you warm us when we're stuck in the midst of
endless family gatherings. However, lately I've been wondering about
your intentions. While I want to believe that you have my best interests
at heart, I feel that your influence has led to some unwise
consequences:

1. Phone calls: While I agree with you that communication is important,
I question the suggestion that any conversation of substance or
necessity takes place after 2 a.m. Why would you make me call those
ex-boyfriends/girlfriends when I know for a fact they do not want to
hear from me during the day, let alone all hours of the night?

2. Eating: Now, you know I love a good meal, but why do you suggest that
I eat a taco with chili sauce, along with a big Italian meatball and
some stale chips (washed down with WINE & topped off with a Kit Kat
after a few cheese curls & chili cheese fries)? I'm an eclectic eater,
but I think you went too far this time.

3. Clumsiness: Unless you're subtly trying to tell me that I need to do
more yoga to improve my balance, I see NO need to hammer the issue home
by causing me to fall down. It's completely unnecessary, and the black &
blue marks that appear on my body mysteriously the next day are beyond
me. Similarly, it should never take me more than 45 seconds to get the
front door key into the lock.

4. Furthermore: The hangovers have GOT to stop. This is getting
ridiculous. I know a little penance for our previous evening's
debauchery may be in order, but the 3pm hangover immobility is
completely unacceptable. My entire day is shot. I ask that, if the
proper precautions are taken (water, vitamin B, bread products, aspirin)
prior to going to sleep/passing out face down on the kitchen floor with
a bag of popcorn, the hangover should be minimal & in no way interfere
with my daily activities.

Alcohol, I have enjoyed our friendship for some years now & would like
to ensure that we remain on good terms. You've been the invoker of great
stories, the provocation for much laughter, and the needed companion
when I just don't know what to do with the extra money in my pockets. In
order to continue this friendship, I ask that you carefully review my
grievances above & address them immediately. I will look for an answer
no later than Thursday 3pm (pre-happy hour) on your possible solutions &
hopefully we can continue this fruitful partnership.

Thank you,
Your biggest fan

P.S. THINGS THAT ARE DIFFICULT TO SAY WHEN DRUNK:
1. Innovative
2. Preliminary
3. Proliferation
4. Cinnamon

THINGS THAT ARE VERY DIFFICULT TO SAY WHEN DRUNK:
1. Specificity
2. British Constitution
3. Passive-aggressive disorder

THINGS THAT ARE DOWNRIGHT IMPOSSIBLE TO SAY WHEN DRUNK:
1. Thanks, but I don't want to have sex.
2. Nope, no more beer for me.
3. Sorry, but you're not really my type.
4. Good evening, officer. Isn't it lovely out tonight?
5. Oh, I couldn't. No one wants to hear me sing

RIP JBN

Current iTunes: The Spill Canvas - Lusta Prima Vista

Alright so it's been a wild weekend. I lost conciousness on friday (non-alcohol related), when I was supposed to be headed up the coast again, which was a major dissapointment, but I suppose I'll be just fine. Friday night I taught a bunch of southern bells how to play flip cup, and with out any amount of surprise, they all sucked, but it was surely a memorable experience watching them try, over and over again. Saturday morning on my way to workout, I discovered my trusty iPod decided to give up on me, which is sweet, because I was looking for an excuse to throw it on eBay and buy the Nano anyway. Speaking of which, I'm sure the old iPod isn't completely toasted, it's just not reading on my computer, and that was all the care I needed to sell it, I'm sure you can troubleshoot the thing. If you're interested in purchasing it, check it out HERE

It's finally starting to cool off here in sunny NC, which is one of the reasons I have any care to stick around here any longer. Last night it was 38 degrees, which is cold enough for me to want my snow pants and jacket.

FILM: I saw the movie waiting last night, very funny, it starts off pretty slow, but it picks right up. (WARNING: Only go see it if you're into really stupid humor). After the movie, we went to Andria's house and used her hot tub, which was great, minus the fact I dropped my screaming orgasm (drink for you alcoholic-virgins) in the water, but I quickly scooped it up and resumed consumption. A good night all together. I hope to have a replay tonight, I really feel like going out again.

PS, the above picture if of my old school Chuck Taylors, and yes I rocked those all night at the clubs.

MySpace.com is extremely addictive.

Current iTunes: Saosin - Bury Your Head

So, my sister recently rekindled her relationship with her bo. I'm not overly enthusiastic about this second go-round, however. His first monumental failure will will only be superseded by his predicted second one. Erica thinks I'm being a pessimist, I call it being cautious, and I speak from unsound experience, that Love is a bitch, and it hurts pretty bad sometimes. I know this, the United State's paid to teach me how to kill people, and I just might have to put it to good use, especially if I have to drive to PA to tear some gutless college student's spine through his ass.

ANYWHO! I think I reached a new workout benchmark, 2 hours worth of cardio in the gym, 30 minutes of outdoor running, and another hour lifting weights. I'm going to try to hit that level again, because at this rate, I'll reach my goal within a month or two. I'm concerned with the gym facilities in New Hampshire, I'm very unhappy that it will be too cold to grasp some much needed training on my mountain bike, but I'm close enough to the mountains that my snowboard will be put to some very good use, maybe I can teach Emily to snowboard this winter, that would be a blast. Now that I can't sleep, I'm going to start today's workouts early after I consume some breakfast.

Have a good day.

Current iTunes: Mario Ft. Juvenile - Boom (DJ Ahmo Remix)

BOOM! Back in sunny NC. The past 10 days are nearly impossible to sum up with a word, or even an elaborate series of words, because it was so incredible words can never do it justice. I'll give it a try though. Surprising to start simple, pleasantly to accompany it will sum up a large portion. I will tag on amazing to part of it also. I won't need to indulge this any further, I'll save it for me and me alone. Aside from a painful drive 15 hours both directions, I was able to stop several times and visit some great people and have some good times. I stopped in PA, RI, MA, NH, and ME. I didn't accomplish all the apartment related errands things I had envisioned, but to be very honest, that was the very last thing on my mind at that point, I had a two track mind, party/friends. I've not had nearly enough time to sit behind the iBook the past few weeks, as I've been entirely too busy with other activities. =D