Current iTunes: 3 Doors Down - Here By Me

So much of my desperately precious time has been wasted on hopeless battles of power and ego stroked individuals. A while back, I found myself standing in the middle of a crowded place looking around to lost and equally confused peers trying to find out an answer to a question I didn't imagine would ever come. I searched and hunted for anyone who was competent enough to give me the knowledge or the leverage required to pull myself out of this ever widening reclusive pit to which I'd become accustomed to. Who was going to help me? I screamed at the top of my lungs and no one heard me; the comforts friends gave me was a temporary relief at best, and not enough to drown my confusion. My point here is that I finally feel I've grown out this shell, I'm no longer one of the lost and confused turning and praying for help, I've become the man I've always wanted to, the man standing in the middle of this cluster of madness, with the all too familiar confused expressions surrounding me for once. But now, these expressions look to me, they are literally shouting to me for hope and direction, and I refuse to be a cliche' and write their needs off as my superiors did before me. I'm now the person people talk about, the one people say "talk to him, he'll do anything he can to help you, just like he did for me", I can't even begin to describe that feeling. The subject I'm referring to is almost solely about my job in the Army, but lately it seems it's stretching beyond the boundaries of my work, and is steadily becoming evident among my close friends and acquaintances, I'm the one people ask for help. Apparently I've managed to conjure a degree of respect and knowledge that other people look to, and appreciate. I'm just glad I can give back something that I reached for so many times unsuccessfully, I hope things continue this way, as it's what enjoy. Take this blog for example, maybe some people read it for a little insight to the life of a soldier, maybe some people stumbled on it by accident, there might be someone who just reads it because they're insanely bored, perhaps my friends read it to catch up on some of the time I've missed with them, of course my family reads it because, that's what family does, and maybe some of you actually learned something from my ridiculously abstract, over analyzing train of thought. Regardless for you're reason for reading, I just hope for the few minutes it takes you to read each update, you at least leaned back in your chair that some of you sadly enough, might be sprouting roots from, and said "wow, he's a great writer," "wow, he's out of his mind", "did I just read that mindless shit?", "this might be worth bookmarking," WHATEVER! I guess I'm just trying to say, thank you, for reading into it I mean. I hope someone at least took a step back and analyzed what it is I'm trying to say, about friends, relationships, bad jobs and family, maybe someone can learn from my mistakes?

Thank you